Sitting here once again, all alone and late at night,

Needing to purge my pain, I sit down and start to write.

My husband seems oblivious or perhaps he doesn't care,

He is so indifferent when my feelings I try to share.

At this time of sorrow most have turned to me their back,

I think the best thing for me to do is die of a heart attack.

I know that many loved ones wait for me on the other side,

Good to know a place is there for me in which I will reside.

I really am ready now for the times to get better,

When I can take my rightful place along side Old Yeller.

--- Sherri Lynn Charland   7-25-2008

If there is a God then why is He so mean,

To keep me in this miserable life is totally obscene.

I'm a pretty good actress because nobody is aware,

That I'm tired of pretending that I'm all right and that I care.

I'm ready to check out is what I must decree,

This world that I'm in is where I wish not to be.

So God if you're out there please hear what I say,

Have a heart and take me before the end of this day.

--- Sherri Lynn Charland   8-09-2008

Again here I try to just get through this day,

Full of sadness and sorrow seems to be my way.

First I tried to ignore all the pain deep inside,

Now I try to work through this misery I hide.

If only my mind was stronger than my heart,

You're leaving me behind wouldn't tear me apart.

Lost, dazed and confused with no place to go,

My memories and thoughts are my biggest foe.

To figure things out is difficult at best,

I guess I'll keep trying until I'm laid to rest.

--- Sherri Lynn Charland   8-27-2008

My days and my nights slowly tick away,

As I fumble through life keeping others at bay.

It wasn't long ago I believed I was content,

Now deeper in depression I continually descent.

Asleep or awake it really doesn't matter,

The essence of life I can't seem to captor.

I realize that my life is but a waste,

Never any joy with which to embrace.

I will pray each day that I will not implode,

As I struggle slowly down grief's lonely road.

--- Sherri Lynn Charland   9-01-2008        

Heart of darkness; a life full of pain,

Struggling each day is truly a strain.

Revisiting memories that I hold dear,

With every visit I cry a new tear.

I really believe that life is unfair,

I hope one day my heart will repair.

How long does it take to grieve is unknown,

I'm tired of living confused and alone.

On the outside I now look the same,

One day my life I hope to reclaim.

--- Sherri Lynn Charland   9-14-2008

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